Which means different things to everybody, but its what it means to me, that really matters most.
Now that may sound selfish, uncaring and maybe even a bit full of myself.
But thats not how I mean it, my train of thought and my mission at the moment is just (I laughed as I wrote 'just' there) to be me, Craig Lowe, 24 hours a day, everyday.
Not to be the person, I think people want me to be, not to do what everyone does, just to fit in, with a group, a club or my friends (who mostly, have now accepted I am Craig Lowe, good and bad).
If I want to walk around smiling, singing, whistling etc, its not because I'm trying to annoy people, if someone smiling and singing annoys you, surely its not down to me to stop, its up to you to have a look at your life, it must be bad if thats all it takes to set you off !?
I have been moaned at and been told to be quite, more times in my life, when I have been in a really great, happy, full of the joys of the day mood, than I ever have when being grumpy and moany. Which is really sad, when you think of it, but unfortunately true.
How many times have people asked you "What are you so happy about?" as if you should need a specific magical event to of occurred before you can be happy (your are apparently weird, if your happy just for the sake of being happy) !
This used to annoy me, still does, but where as before, I would actually end up, shutting up, or let my good mood be destroyed, now I don't listen, it has no effect on me, people looking at me strangely as I smile walking up the street, while I sing walking through the gym.
No its not fake happiness, no I'm not trying to annoy anyone. Its me, just being me.
Now I'm not for a minute suggesting, we turn the world into scenes from Grease, The Sound of Music or Glee (but that would be funny). Singing may not be what keeps your spirits up, walking around 'annoying' people by telling jokes, to be fair some are bad, but I still try. But there must be something you know makes you, even a little happier, even singing to yourself, in your head, whatever.
Yes you will get people who try to take that happiness away, but I'll guarantee for every one that tries to knock you, there will be three people who you make smile, even if its just for a few seconds, but that has got to be worth it, eh ?
Once you read the above poster, have a think, fill in the blanks
I AM ..........................................................................?
Who are you ? Do you let the real you out on show ?
Or do you, go with the crowd, run with the 'in' group, make your square peg into a round one ?
Have you buried the misfit in you so far down, you can't even remember, what the real you looks like.
Are you happily living in the shadows, plodding through life, trying not to sparkle, in case your awesomeness catches someones eye ?
Do you have a dream, a passion for something, but you dare not share it, with anyone, especially those cool 'dudes' you know, your so called peers, your superiors, your partner.
What if they laugh at you? What if they think its stupid?
Who gave them the right, to hold your life back, keep you at their mediocre level ? (the answer to that is YOU, in case you weren't sure)
Follow your instinct, your dreams, your passion.
Life is just like a treadmill, when you live it without passion, without a purpose, you maybe working hard, but your not reaching any life goals, you'l get to the end and not been anywhere truly worthwhile.
Your maybe the only person who knows your true dreams and desires, what you truly wish to be, in which case you are the first one holding you back, from that glorious life you seek. Agreed ?
Now ask yourself
"Why am I holding myself back, I know what I want, why do I not go after it?"
Are you scared?
Scared of stepping out of the 'normal', what will the in crowd think of me, if I share my ideas, goals ?
Do you feel your too old?, is the time not right ? (you will be older tomorrow and the time is always right to follow your purpose)
Do you have no idea, how to start out on your path, do you need a hand, a mentor, a guide to see you through those first steps? (Find one, investigate the subject, ask me, I'll find you one)
Maybe you have already found your lifes' purpose (awesome) You wake up 999/1000 delighted its anew day, another chance to live your perfect life, to continue on your purpose filled path.
If so, I am so delighted your reading my blog and I am (even in a small way) a part of your life and hope someday to have found my life's purpose, although I am enjoying the search.
For those that only wake up 1/1000 and really truly look forward to your day at work, another day in your life, how long are you going to allow yourself to live that way, feeling crap, counting down the days, till Friday or the weeks till you can have a week or off, as far away from your everyday existence as possible?
That my blog reader, is not life, well not a life you should be thinking of doing for any serious amount of time.
That is blah, its magnolia, its an overcast day, its background music, its not a life.
So, be you, don't be who you think people will be happy with.
Be happy and find the people that are happy with that person, the real, true you. (I'm loving you already)
Never be afraid of saying how you feel, to who you love.
Never be afraid of reaching towards the ultimate you.
If people want to mock you, its usually because they're far too scared to say and do what they would love to. They will bury their dreams in the deepest darkest place they can find, locked on a box, welded shut, never to be release until its too late, then they will realise, the dream followers, the purpose finders, the souls searchers were right all along.
Be the one, that followed, chased the dream, with all your might and passion.
Follow the path with everything you have in your heart.
When its no longer possible, you know you can fill in the following, without regret or be in any doubt
I AM ................................................
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